Friday, April 20, 2012
I have an atheist friend who is antagonistic towards me sometimes. It makes me feel disconnected from him and small. I don't know how to handle it. I wish he was softer. I completely understand that my mystical views are weird to him. I come from the perspective where I embrace things I don't understand all the way and I like to wonder a lot. I think that this is really strange to him and I feel like he doesn't respect it. But I need him to respect it just like I feel I respect what resonates with him. But if he wants concrete answers, he's not going to be able to get them from me because I see things in a way that there are things beyond my understanding and I have peace with that and also curiosity towards that. I feel like he thinks I'm a total dumbass for thinking that way. I really like exploring what the meaning could be behind things that I don't understand. I often have a strange peace when things don't tie up in a tidy knot but I completely understand that is not the way it is for him. Anyway, the root of my grief here is that I feel like he doesn't respect it because he doesn't understand it. I wonder how I can communicate this to him without him freaking out. I don't know how to approach it. Thoughts?