Ohhhh Amy Sedaris and Paul Dinello together again! You'd never know it was a Chipotle ad, or at least I didn't really. If this is how they're going to have to sneak advertising into our technological food then I'm just fine with it.
David got back from Tokyo today, he was there for eight days and I was a single working mom for eight days. So glad he's home, and hopefully without any viable radiation side effects. Here's their trip tumblr and also a clip of what they were doing there.
I feel like I'm healing from the church stuff that I've been carrying for the past few months. Someone who had been in a similar situation told me to read How To Survive The Loss of a Love and so I got it from the library (and tried to hide the cover when I was checking it out). It really helped so I wanted to talk about it here as maybe a resource for help for any kind of emotional injury. I'm excited about being a part of a new faith community and I'm starting to see what happened recently was necessary for me to see some things that I otherwise may not have seen. It's so hard when something like this happens in any kind of family and this was our church family so it was huge. But they also gave me a huge gift by showing what they believed so that I could make an assessment about whether I could still be there or not. And I couldn't, I can't. It would be so much easier to stay because it was my community for twelve years and I love the people there so dearly, but a fundamental part of their philosophy didn't match up with what I believe to be true. So I had to say goodbye and mourn it. It's been absolutely huge and painfully heavy for me but now that a bit of time has passed I'm able to see good things coming from it, like moving towards a new community and being excited about that and learning things from new people and interacting with them and building a new family. It's been a big thing to explain to our children as well because it was the only church family they'd ever known and they of course want to know why we can't be there anymore. We tell them that we disagree about what we believe the Bible teaches but that God is bigger than all of this and he still loves us all the same and we are trusting him to bring good new things for us. Their sweet little hearts are so open and it makes me think about how Jesus said that unless we become like little children we can't see his mysteries. And then it goes back to the mystery of what we're doing when we seek out this metaphysical, inexplicable stuff. Growing up in church it gets mechanical and angsty and really easily becomes boring because we forget there's mystery under it all. It's like there are cracks in the walls of the boringness and pain that exists in church life but the mystery is still streaming in, dying to get in somehow so it leaks in through the cracks and if we are brave enough we'll kick open the door a little and be open to it.
Wow, that was kind of a tangent.